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Happy graduation day, errybody.

Finally. I can stop being so stressed out about every single thing. I feel like my life will be back to normal after today. It’s been a hard 4 years of high school. I think the hardest had to of been when I moved here last year. That was THE worst. Or when I went crazy partying and sneaking out all night long sophomore year. I don’t think I would change any of it though. It’s been fun. I have been punished, grounded, scolded and lectured SO many times in the past 4 years but it’s also come with a lot of laughs and a lot of memories made. Every ounce of trouble I got into, and every ounce of grief I caused has been worth it. 

So I guess this is a new chapter of my life? I don’t feel any different, maybe it hasn’t hit me yet. It’s time I get rid of the past though. I have boxes of things I shouldn’t have kept or shouldn’t still have that I feel like I need to get rid of in order to move on with my life to create new and better memories. 

I hope my dad doesn’t cry. That would kill me I think. I have only seen him cry two times. No matter how angry he makes me, or how much I say I can’t stand him.. I think that I have one of the best dads in the whole world. I definitely wouldn’t be graduating today if it wasn’t for him. 

Yesterday Chris did something and it made me realize how much he does actually care. He is right, I should stop worrying if he cares or if he doesn’t care.. because he does. He just doesn’t show it all the time..that’s just one of those things you have to learn to deal with when you love somebody though. 

Anyways, I smell like sex and sweat. I need to go take a shower and go buy a thank you card for my parents. Maybe I don’t give my mom enough credit? I have this hostility towards her in the back of my mind and I can’t let it go.. I’m trying. I really am.  

I hope everybody has a wonderful day, as I believe I will have. 

…

A person can only handle so much.

Good night.

In 2 days..

.. I will be graduating. Why on Earth am I not excited!? I guess it doesn’t feel like it’s really happening. 

I went for a very long run this morning, it made me feel better. A car followed me last night, that was probably one of the scariest things that’s happened in  while. 

Anyways, I have to go buy some graduation tickets. 

Hope everybody has a wonderful day.